Swazi is officially over. It’s unreal how fast time went and how little time left on the race I have. Swazi has been one of the sweetest two months of my life and just such a time of resting in the Lord. Ministry here is so simple yet so fullfilling. To be able to love on the kids we interact with and show them the light of the Lord. Its been such a blessing to build relationships with people we meet on the streets and within our ministry.
My favorite things have been just how precious each and everyone one of the kids are. They are beautiful children of God and it’s been a joy to love them. It’s so simple to love and care for them but so so beautiful to see that the way we love them is just how the Father loves us. We are His children and He just wants to love and comfort us no matter the circumstances. Being reminded of that truth but also seeing it within everyday has reshaped my heart and shown me that the Father just wants to hold me and love me.
As I think back about my time here in Swazi, the Lord has taken me on a journey of showing me what it means for Him to take care of me. Of letting go of all expectations of others to care for me and stripping that need of having something tangible to be able to show me that I can be dependent of Him and taken care of by Him. He has brought me a peace that transcends all understanding and I’m not even able to comprehend it. Its definitely been a challenge to let go of the need to feel care and support by other and truly lean into the love and care of the Lord. He removed people from my presence and led me to seek him out instead of others. He’s showed me the importance of leaning on Him before leaning on others. Through this He has restored relationships and showed me that community is a beautiful gift from Him but shouldn’t be idolized.
The Lord gave me a vision at the beginning of swazi of me walking on a journey with Him. It started as me sitting at a bus stop and looking upon fields of wheat. I’m sitting there as He comes and embraces me in His arms. We sit there as He holds me and I know that I’m finally safe. He then leads me down a dirt road into a valley. As i’m in the valley all I can see is the depths of it and the darkness that has washed over. Jesus is the light that leads me back to the top of the hill. We sit at the top of the hill and look at hills and valleys of beautiful flowers. As we sit there He shows me His character and His truth that is even within me and the beauty of His creation.
This is the journey that the Lord had taken me on here. He has met me where i was and took me to show me more. Although for me to see more i had to walk deeper into the lies and brokenness to come out on the other side and back into His light. As I came out to the other side, I see more and more of His goodness and love upon me.
Swazi has been my favorite because of how much the Lord has showed me and walked me through. I wouldn’t change any part of it and I will never forget about my time here. It was a hard goodbye and I haven’t realized that I’m done with my overseas in the season. But I know the Lord is continuing to work with me and show me His sweetness.
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